My Unique Path to Wellness
The start of my healing journey I was generally in a state of panic and desperate for answers. I asked many doctors and alternative practitioners. I tried a variety of different kinds of supplements. There were even spiritual retreats I attended. There were the protocols and energy work, and all the while, I was hoping someone, anyone, could tell me how to fix it.
Every new discovery brought temporary hope. Maybe this practitioner would finally offer the right diagnosis. Maybe that supplement would correct a hidden imbalance. Accepting support and gaining insight from professionals was still important. But I admittedly arrived to all of them in desperation, expecting to be cured. This led to a lot of disappointment. I now understand that I need to listen to my body.
I was on this vicious cycle of initial improvement, followed by a plateau, and then a crash. Eventually symptoms returned and I was back at square-one again. The whole process has been very exhausting and defeating.
It took years to gain even just a little bit of clarity. I kept trusting those outside of me without understanding what my own body was trying to communicate. What took me so long to understand was that no one else had the answers. I had been following generalized advice, hoping it would work, when in truth, my healing path was never going to look like anyone else’s.
Letting go of the belief that someone else had to “fix” me didn’t happen overnight. But once I started to understand that I did start to notice improvements. It was slow but it was happening. I stopped trying to force my body into doing something that it wasn’t ready or wanting to do. I had to stop forcing it. That part was the hardest for me to understand. I thought that I was helping myself. You wouldn’t believe how many times I accidentally triggered a healing crisis. But I guess I was having to learning the hard way.
I’ve had to learn that healing isn’t linear, and I’ve stopped expecting it to be. I’ve come to understand that I am sensitive to both stress and also to relaxation. Yes, even relaxation was triggering major reactions in my body. It took me a long time to finally understand that. This is one of the reasons why I decided to start this blog. Maybe there are others out there that have experience something similar.
I wanted to share everything I’ve learned about living with a dysregulated nervous system. I wanted to talk about the lived experience of being inside a body that doesn’t respond the way you expect. At this stage, I am probably at the hardest parts of this process and I hope to offer something meaningful to others navigating their own version of this journey. Because when nothing seems to make sense, it can feel incredibly hopeless.
For years, I’d been fighting my symptoms and honestly, that’s the default mode in most healthcare systems which is to fix the problem fast. But now, I’m learning to support my body in doing what it already knows how to do. Sometimes, healing means stepping back, letting go, and giving your body the time and space it needs to find its own rhythm.
The healing continues.
If you would like to look for yourself, here is the link: (PMC)
